-= designer phone =-

Reached home late yesterday. 2am. Tried to sleep but couldn't. Ended up sleeping around 3+am. As I would have expected, I slept through the alarm and did not get for school. Got up around 11am. By then, auto cad class would have ended and there would be no use going to school as it would only mean going there for half an hour or so.

So... I decided to put those cd labels to good use and stick them onto my phone. The thing is, the adhesive has dried and i had to make my own. Used double sided tape to position them. Then wrapped them all up using scotch tape. Looks kinda rugged but I like. Heh. Here's how it looks like.

There you go. I'd probably change the center label for a nicer band name soon. But this would do.

Apparently, the maid's giving the same problem as the previous. Still proves my point of 'maids + handphone = trouble'. Wonder what's gonna happen next.

Now let me just go get some of those one-day-old coke in the fridge.

This was written at 1:10 pm on Tuesday, May 31

-= jlebby =-

"Wah lau wei... How long you keep your hair already ar? So thick. Like the Red Hot Chili Peppers person already... Hah." - Kai Ru.

Hahah. That was funny. Well it's good being back at school. Planned to skip the last class but didn't have to. Class ended early. So.... I went to Roxy with Jus. Got my Rapture cd. Jus asked me, "Braper tu satu cd? Tengok..."

"$30? Giler kau..."

I thought it might be fun if I bought another cd and see Jus' reaction. So I got myself some power metal cd.

"Braper kau beli? 2? Kau... $60 sak... Giler ar kau..."

Hahah. But.. It's worth it ar. Worth at least 90% of the cost. Which is good lah.

Okay. Gonna go sned my mum to the airport. She's going to China for a few days for a field trip of some sort. And as I thought I would end up broke... I managed to ask my mum to give me money. And I got $80. Hahah. No big deal ar... I have to use that for the whole month. Bah... At least my mum's paying for my bill this month. So... Not so bad ar...

I think it's gonna be a good week. I feel happy. Listening to the cds. Lots of energy. Haah... K crap...

Back to more headbanging for now. Cheerio.

This was written at 8:09 pm on Monday, May 30

-= floor =-

I think the floor is the best thing sleep on. The cool hard floor. Beats sleeping on the bed.

Will be spending my whole day out tomorrow. Make that every Monday. Schools from 9am to 5pm. Then to keyboard class which ends at who knows what time. Speaking of which I haven't practiced any of the songs. I think I'll stop with the lessons once I'm through with this course. Then I'll probably do self study.

So yeah... 5 hours left to school. Looking forward to the long walks to and fro school from Dover MRT. That's what I really go to school for. Other than the chicken rice.

I don't know. But is it right to say that love is an excuse for possession? Like you know.. When people say. 'I love you. I want you to be mine. Forever.' What's that supposed to mean? Yeah... Call me crazy. I know I am. You can add mad and insane too.

Looking forward to this comming Friday. Hope all goes according to plan. Yeap. Hope.

So what would it take for you to discover.
That I was the loser I was the sucker.
How would you feel if I saw another
And she made me happy.
Would you ever recover?
(All Alone - Driving East)

Oh well... Better go start counting sheep or else I'd be late. Good day.

This was written at 1:54 am on

-= yay =-

Tomorrow school starts.
30th May is finally here.
Rapture cd is in.

School ends at 5pm.
Not enough money for it.
Can't collect because of keyboard class.

Bah...

This was written at 4:05 pm on Sunday, May 29

-= moon of my nights =-

Paranoia.
Insanity.

Envy.
Revenge.

Betwixt the poetry and passion.
Lies one's expression of emotion.

Desire.
Desperation.

Love.
Possesion.

It is not about what one says,
But what one does.

Thoughts.
Feelings.

Faith.
Strength.

A picture says a thousand words.
A word paints a thousand pictures.

Believe.
Trust.

Sacrifice.
Suffer.

Action speaks a thousand words.
Doing nothing speaks a million.

Everything.
Nothing.

Power.
Chaos.

Unlock these feelings I have.
For it is my only escape.
I won't bleed anymore.
Fall from grace as I offer you sin.

My silent sky is turning grey.
My fragile world is crumbling down.
Rescue me before it consumes me.
For you are my only salvation.

No, I can't escape this fate.
Not by myself at least.
Help me.
Turn this nightmare into a fairytale.

Will deliverance dawn upon me?
And turn this estranged soul around?

We will never know.
We will never know.
We will never know...

For now at least.

This was written at 2:36 am on Saturday, May 28

-= Il| =-

School starts in 3 days. Finally.

Mr Ang will be the thermodynamics lecturer. I think we're gonna die.

There'll be engineering maths. I think I'm gonna die as well.

I think I'll try out for the SP school team. SMA team is crappy. Disorganized. We need someone new in charge.

Match tomorrow. Need players.

Rapture cd not here yet. Wonder when it'll come.

3 more days. To the big day. Still no money. Bah.

Stupid Adventure Inc is on. Blergh. I need cable.

Okay. What drives a person? Go figure.

This was written at 4:49 pm on Friday, May 27

-= reflections =-

Think what you want. Do what you want. I don't care already. Goodnight.

This was written at 11:31 pm on Thursday, May 26

-= video for the day =-

Subtitles.

Today I feel like crap. Tired, weary, sleepy and who knows what else. I can't control my legs properly. My eyesight is blurry. My head aches. My stomach feels bloated.

I think I need sleep.

This was written at 9:40 pm on Wednesday, May 25

-= right/left brain =-

Stayed up the whole night just now. Couldn't sleep. So... I fiddled with the keyboard. Learned few songs. Made few songs. Crammed my wrist up. Sheesh. I need a keyboard stand. And a keyboard bag. And another amplifier. And new t-shirts. And more money. Yeap.

5 more days. Hang in there.

This was written at 11:33 pm on Tuesday, May 24

-= 30th may =-

6 more days. And I'm still short of cash. No......

This was written at 2:12 am on

-= o0O =-

Top 5 Hits of the Week

1. Tarzan Boy - Baltimora
2. Go Go Power Rangers - Power Rangers Orchestra
3. In Rock 8 Bit - Bodenstandig 2000
4. Dare - Stan Bush
5. Wait For Sleep - Dream Theater

Watched 6 movies over the weekend. Not bad eh? Hahah. The people in Amityvile Horror has nice abs. Except the fat son. But he has nice hair. Hahah.

Gonna see more familiar faces in school soon. Nyahah. Freshies. Hmm...

Okay. Man can go even through the grey stone.

This was written at 5:58 pm on Monday, May 23

-= super sunday =-

Hah! Who could have asked for a better sunday?

Police Academy, Moonwalker and Robocop all in a row. Wooo!

And they said tv was boring... Hahah!

Crap. I'm broke. Seriously. Bah.

This was written at 3:52 pm on Sunday, May 22

-= last goodbye =-

Seeing through my eyes.

See your life, selfish and cold, I know.

Seeing through my eyes.

See my life fall down this hole, I know.

Beautiful eyes bring me lies.

Seeing through my eyes.

See my life, a heartbroken soul, I know.

Seeing through my eyes.

Feel my heart but don't let me go.

Don't you let me go!

Beautiful eyes bring me lies.

Through your eyes, I see lies.

Cold from inside and it's my last goodbye.

Until the end I'll feel this way and until my dying day.

I swear I've never been so betrayed.

Until the end I'll feel this way and until my dying day.

I swear I will never feel the same!

When you start believing those beautiful dreams,

you will know it's over.

It's not as it seems.

When you start believing those beautiful lies,

then you know it's over.

It's your last goodbye.

This was written at 1:53 pm on Saturday, May 21

-= gangongeng =-

Finally... Some good news. I'm wanted. Bah. Go figure.

This was written at 2:18 am on

-= the end result of falling... =-

Here I am left here holding this empty heart
You reach inside and try to feel what's left of me
I fall back to the sea and try to forget this dream
I peel the skin that holds me here inside of you
I fall back to the sea and all I have left is this black heart
I can't feel these arms around me
I can hear your voice inside me
(Release me from this empty lie, I don't want to feel this anymore)
(Let go from this cell, I never wanted to feel this again)
I didn't ask for this. I didn't try for this. I never asked for this.
I never wanted this inside me.

This was written at 7:59 pm on Friday, May 20

-= 1+1=1 =-

Pretty woman,
Walking down the street,
Pretty woman,
The kind I would like to meet.

Meet at where?

Meat at the market lah...

This was written at 11:48 pm on Thursday, May 19

-= fave songs =-

Curly Fries - Knox

Curly fries, curly fries,
I love you more than curly fries.
If I had a choice between curly fries and you,
I would choose you.
Curly fries, curly fries,
I like you more than curly fries.

Hotdog Song - Knox

My life sucks,
So I sell hotdogs.
I'm selling hotdogs,
Because my life sucks.

Macaroni and Cheese - Knox

Macaroni, macaroni, macaroni, macaroni,
Put the cheese in the noodles,
What do you get?
(Repeat as many times)

There you go. Top 3 songs for the day. (:

This was written at 1:28 pm on Wednesday, May 18

-= if you want to be a god of wind =-

Hmmmmmmm............

What were you expecting? An entry?

This was written at 12:28 am on

-= uhuh uhuh =-

This was written at 2:13 am on Tuesday, May 17

-= do you? do you?? heheheh... =-

I like those green peas. Y'know... Those coated with that white stuff. Gee... That sounds weird. Hope you get what I mean though. Can't get enough of them. Been eating them for 3 days straight. And it has been my primary source of nutrition.

My mom wants to us to go to Melacca for 2 days next week. I wonder what I'm gonna do there. Maybe I'll use the cannot wake up tactic again. Then I'll have 2 days of solitairy bliss to myself. Wooo!

Well, hope 3pm comes quick. There's something on TV I wanna watch. In the meantime though, I think I'll play solitaire and eat green peas. Bye.

This was written at 12:44 pm on Sunday, May 15

-= hey... come here... =-

13. The Devil's dozen. It is said that if 13 people have dinner together, all of them will die in the same year. Wonder if it's true.

Had another one of those weird dreams. But guess what. This time it involved me. Speak of the devil eh? Heh. I was with 'someone' doing something. Couldn't remember what I did but it was something I talked about yesterday with someone. Can't remember who though. But I know it wasn't a gay dream. Hah. And like all the times I had this kinda of dreams, I wake up in the middle of my sleep. It always happens when the dream is just beginning to unfold. Therefore I always end up wondering what really happened and what it really means.

Brazil won the 2006 World Cup over Singapore in a boring final which saw 2 late goals from Roberto Carlos. Turkey was denied 3rd place because of a handball from England's Steven Gerard. Hai...

Okay. Back to more stoning man... David E. Kelly.

This was written at 5:46 pm on Saturday, May 14

-= this is my time this is my tear =-

In its early days, solitaire was most prevalent in Europe. Playing cards were first introduced in Italy in the 1300s. During that time they also became popular in Northern Europe. The first known solitaire game rules were recorded during the Napoleonic era. The very word 'solitaire' is of a French origin, and it means 'patience'. Napoleon, deported to the island lost in the ocean, knew what confinement felt like fully; he also knew how cards could solace one sentenced to solitude.

Well... So much for being just a card game.

This was written at 1:19 am on

-= driving east =-

Sheesh. I'm supposed to be on holiday but it doesn't feel like it. Crap. I'd be better off spending my time doing school stuff. I'm just glad I didn't grow fat over this past few weeks. Haven't really done anything great as of late.

The cds I ordered are in. Gonna collect them tomorrow or over the weekend. Gonna cost me $60. I wonder if I have $60 in the bank. I can't keep asking my grandma for money already. Gah.

I've always wondered. What if I hadn't grown up here in Yishun. Would I be like I am today? More importantly, would I enjoy it? I don't know. Kids these days seem happy all the time. Why can't I be like them? Why must I always feel so bad for myself? This sucks.

Gee... Never thought I'd be listening to loops of Driving East.

Baik ar... My alarm didn't sound and I missed Everwood. Now I'm awake with nothing to do. Wish my com had a DVD drive. Could at least watch something. Blergh.

And oh... Happy Friday the 13th everyone.

This was written at 1:42 am on Friday, May 13

-= the guy from the =-

You won't find it here,
Look another way.
You won't find it here,
So die another day.

Everything is nothing.

This was written at 11:18 pm on Thursday, May 12

-= for great laughs =-

Click here! :)

And here's something for you Randy Jackson fans!

This was written at 7:18 pm on Wednesday, May 11

-= so the only thing to think is this.... i want out! =-

Went jamming just now with Hafidz, Gerald and Yazid. I think we didn't really prepare ourselves properly for the songs. Heh. However, it was kinda fun making up impromptu stuff. Heh. The amplifier was kinda crappy. Sounds like people farting when the distorion was on. Sounded something like this. Jeng jeng jeng prut prut preet jeng jroot jret fret. Yeap. That's supposed to be Zombie. I think this band could work out well. A little more time and abit more timing, should be okay. Yeap. Perapadap... Aaaargh! Help! I can't swim either! Blurblurblurblur...(Drowning sound)

In other breaking news,

I drank 2 cans of Red Bull. So... BEWARE. Be aware. Wear your underwear.

Guess that's it. I better find ingenious ways to find money now. Glarb.

This was written at 8:10 pm on Tuesday, May 10

-= tuu tuu tuu tutu tuu tuu tuu tutu tuu tuu tuu... =-

Today... Is the name of a newspaper! Yay!

Ok no.

Today I had keyboard class. Apparently I didn't mastered the song but nevermind ar. Just went.

Left the house at 5pm. Class was supposed to start at 6pm but on the way up to the train platform, Leslie said she'd be late and class would start at 7pm. So I ended up spending 30 mins alone in the room playing the keyboard. Didn't actually practiced the song. Instead, I made a song. Hah. Sounds techno but what the heck. At least something.

Well looks like Mondays will be fully occupied from now on. Gonna have double dose classes. 5-8pm or something like that.

Now for current issues.

4 more days. To.... The Amityville Horror.

But then... The $10 I got was used for keyboard fees. Argh... Broke again.

Jamming tomorrow. I think. Yah. Hor. Lah. K. Bye.

This was written at 10:35 pm on Monday, May 9

-= the letter d =-

Denial.
Depression.
Damnation.
Depletion.
Degradation.
Down.
Doom.
Death.
Danger.
Deception.
Devil.
Demon.
Dyslexia.
Dementia.

The letter D.

This was written at 12:27 am on

-= krange =-

Finally I got some peaceful sleep. 8 hours. Wahhhh....

Was awoken by my stupid loud ringtone though. But nevermind ar. It was all I needed a good night's rest. Guess the lullabies worked. Heh.

Okay. There's something that has been on my mind. When we wake up, do we eat first then brush our teeth or is it the other way around. My mum always bugs me by asking me to brush my teeth all first then can eat. But I don't see why I should brush first when I'm gonna eat then have to brush it again. Which is right? Hmmm...

I guess I can't ask for a much better Sunday morning can I? Rain. Man United didn't win last night. Real Madrid and Atheletic Bilbao won. Oh well... Today is gonna be keyboard day. I have to master Top of the World by tomorrow.

Have a nice Sunday everyone.

This was written at 10:58 am on Sunday, May 8

-= *_* =-

And so we move into the 35th hour since I closed my eyes for more than 5 minutes.

Lost again to some team. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah. Haiyah.

Argh... I'm so tired. I want to sleep lah.... Somebody sing me a lullaby. Goodnight.

This was written at 5:38 pm on Saturday, May 7

-= wahhh... =-

Sleep lah.... Why cannot sleep... Argh....

This was written at 2:32 am on

-= fiddle dee fiddle dum =-

Goyang goyang
Goyang kepala goyang goyang

Lalalala~

This was written at 6:47 pm on Friday, May 6

-= of a's and f's =-

Hmmm... 2 D+'s, 2 C+'s, 1 C, 1 B+ and 1 Distinction. I'll do with that.

Bugger F for stupid GEM. Puit.

Nehmind. At least I'm eligible for year 2. Yay. No more skipping classes. : I

This was written at 1:06 pm on Thursday, May 5

-= endless conflict theorem =-

Got a new cd. Yay!

This was written at 6:58 pm on Wednesday, May 4

-= 2-1 =-

Went to play Red Alert with Mie, Wan and Lai. Teamed up with Lai and beat Mie and Wan 2 games to 1. The last game was probably the best. Heh.

I think Liverpool will win today. 2-1 maybe.

Other than that, stuffs been bland as of late. Is there such a job as a personal advisor? I would sure like to be one.

Okay. Gotta go back to my study on human behaviour. Goodnight.

This was written at 9:39 pm on Tuesday, May 3

-= random facts part one =-

Here are some things you may or may not know. I doubt it would be of any concern anyway.

If you click a link while holding the shift key, the link will open in a new window.

Left handed people are more adaptable than right handed people as most things that are made are for right handers. Therefore adaptation comes naturally.

Today is Levi's 501 day.

Medicated oils work by penetrating through the pores of your skin and then get absorbed by the blood.

Red Python is still around. OMG! :-O

Cds are actually transparent if you scratch of the labels.

The word 'lepak' originated from the words 'lay' and 'park'. It was actually a place where people went to lie down and relax. It was known as 'Lay Park'. Eventually, it evolved into lepak.

The word 'lampu' comes from the word 'lamp'.

1 + 1 + 1 does not equal to 1.

There is actually such a genre called Forest Metal.

Def Leppard's drummer only has one hand.

Bad breath is caused by the gases emitted by bacteria that breed in plaque.

Some people have sweet smelling armpits.

An average piano has 88 keys.

George Michael is gay.

General traits of each gender;

Male : Aggressive, prone to heart disease, navigate by spatial reasoning, mature later, better on math than language tests.

Female : Coopoerative, prone to auto-immune disease, navigate by landmarks, mature earlier, better on language than maths tests.

Black people are generally more musically inclined. (excluding Syazwan. heh.)

Okay. This shall do for part one. Check back soon for part two. Cheerio.

This was written at 1:44 pm on Monday, May 2

-= two dead names =-

one day darkness showed
up at my door
ate the light, closed my world
told me the demons where here
and that i was wrong
all along

everything washes away
fear and despair
never knew what they meant
until the black
came my way
in our full circle

we fed each other
in the fallin this cold year
that consumed the strength, the will
with so little to hold near

if i was the sky
would i hold you dear
(or come crashing down)
two dead names waiting
two dead names

reaching out with cold hands
wishing it would all come together
(in a final infinite white)
two dead names screaming
two dead names

Gotta go get that CD.

Note to self : Tomorrow go order.

This was written at 2:31 pm on Sunday, May 1